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Saturday, November 26, 2011



hate anger rage evil chaos revenge pathos
It has been a long time that we have been living under the forces of evil. We have been afraid of our own shadows. They have controlled our lives with fear. We have succumbed to our own demons. We have let them scare us into terror. Terror of what is not there, terror of what is there. We are afraid of bombs, germ warfare, invasion, our neighbor. We walk down the street and will not look around, Or we look around at everyone imagining they are carrying a vest that will blow us and twenty blocks in every direction to bits.
    If we a continue to permit fear to rule our lives then they have won. Then they have placed us in  a prison of our own bodies. We have become frozen. Immovable, afraid to venture into life, afraid to turn around, to see what is in fact behind us. We once were a thriving hive of activity. Now we are at dead stop in the water, listening to the pings of the radar. Waiting for the depth charges to explode. We are living on life support. We must at some time soon, return to the surface to replenish our air supply. Should we, dare we, surface now, in the face of the enemy, who wishes us gone. But whose ship is the enemy, which afloat should we fear, which ship should we prevent from coming near. We do not know. We are guessing where the enemy abides, maybe the enemy is here, maybe the enemy is there. Turn.
Look over your shoulder, shed the fear, give yourself permission to be free. You have done nothing wrong to be punished for. Forgive yourself, for all the mistakes you have made. The days and the nights are long, and time is a swift companion. You can not be right all the time, and only sometimes you are punished for being wrong. Use your best judgement, trust your feelings. Give in to the urge to live. Take back your life, carry on to where you wanted to be. Let not the fear of the unknown take hold of the only life you have. Venture forth. Give up being controlled by fear. Let your mind explore, let your mind work, let your mind make your life the place you desire. Forget about the danger. Begin to make this world the place of sunshine and flowers. Begin to change the world by one little smile, then make that smile a little bigger, smile at the first person you see, When you feel a bit stronger, when you feel good again about smiling, try a 'good morning'.The first person you see with a grumpy demeanor voice an "hello" and a smile and continue on your way. Plant just one little seed of Happiness, then another, then watch the seeds grow. Give up the long face, give up the anticipation of doom. Share the happiness, tell all your friends to share the happiness. Make this the week that begins the new age of aquarius, the age of love and sunshine and flowers. All beginning with one smile, one twinkle in the eye. Touch a strangers heart with kindness. Let them see that you are happy and that it is ok for them too to be happy. It is far better to live the life of happiness than the life of gloom and doom. What ever happens, you are in the position to choose. Do you choose fear, hate, anger, rage, evil OR do you choose to enjoy the time you have. It is your time. Your clock is ticking, maybe tomorrow you will die of a heart attack, or the day after. If you had only one day left to live, how would you choose to spend it, living a gray drawn face spreading the doom to all around you who will survive. Do you want your survivors to have a good life or do you want them to cower at every corner.
   IT IS TIME TO REVOLT against the fear, against the terror which has spread like a wild fire. "fear IS the mind killer", that has the brain dead in the body that still breathes. Open your arms to the world, open your heart to life, do not just be a survivor, be an alivor. Use your time wisely, use your time to let your mind grow. Shut the door in the face of fear, it is neither a friend nor a companion worth nurturing. Block the thoughts that get in your way to happiness. Let happiness be your goal and let the goal of happiness be the golden age of the present, the NOW that is the beginning of our own revolt against the fear that has entombed us in activity. Laugh at danger, Noboby gets out of it alive, we are all going to die, while we are here wouldn't we rather be happy. Rather than growing ulcers over something we cannot see. We are our own worst enemy when we let the fear control our lives, we the fools, who give up the only thing we have, time, and how we spend it. Worry gets us nothing, tell your mind the problem you want it to solve, and get on with your life, trust that your mind will work out the problem, and in the mean time, get on with your life. You are alive, reward yourself with a good life, release the tension in your body and make strides to the sunshine, the happiness, the good life. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS. it is less expensive than fear.
Make it your own revolt, revolt against the fear that is controlling your life, that is the true enemy. Live and be free, live and breathe.

Thursday, November 24, 2011


Remembering a time of less
looking back at the past
knowing where we are
here in the now
seeing the world change
watching the new transitions
hearing the needs of others
'the winter of our discontent'
the time trying
the age of new
the clock ticking
the people with less
the many with few
the few with plenty
the age of want anew
some of we are healthy
the others have less than we
the count in America is fourteen percent
14% of the people less able
to care for themselves
to care for others
to be cared for by others
to watch others care for them
When thoughts wander to possessions
and things that must be
the clothes new
the tools new
the house new
the shoes new too
the dreams of the things that make
our lives easier
the pleasures to enhance
the days and the nights
the luxuries
the frivolities
that make us feel better about ourselves
the things we no longer can have
the stuff that now costs too much
the stuff we are relearning to do without
the better off without
the things we tell ourselves
to train ourselves to do without
the stuff we daydream about having
the stuff we want
just because we want
not because we need
not because it we can't live without
the little treasures we covet
the things our lives must have
we are again learning to do without
to again remember we can live without
and again we remember there are many
doing without
in America and the rest of the world
some of the young people have had
not to do without
and for them this is a strange event
the silver spoons are now aluminum
the shoes with holes in the soles
with the cardboard cut to fit
to keep the toes from the pavement
the sweaters with holes
the towels with the holes
the ones we use to throw out
the sock with the hole
that now we mend
not being able to afford
to cast them aside
not being able to buy
if it can be sewn
it is good as new
when on the mend
less to eat
nothing to eat
not what we like to eat
anything to eat
less meat
rice and beans
beans and rice
we will again
become lean
new times
difficult times
different times
not the way we want it to be
no longer the lap of luxury
nothing to throw away
nothing to buy
nothing to buy anything with
we are entering the age of poor
time to keep an eye on the neighbor
watch that person walking by
have they eaten today
did they eat yesterday
is their hunger a danger
are they too hungry to think
or are they in the pink
no longer the time to walk down the street
without noticing what is going on
no longer the time when safe is the norm
not in America, not anywhere
the age of uncertainty
the age of revolt
the age of anger
the age of pain
the age of aggression
the age of aloneness
the age of oneness
the age of the world
crushed by the greed
beaten by the fraud
cheated by the deception
defeated by the lies
beaten by the lies
individuals alone
the new us
with more time on our hands
with less money to spend
the new us
having to amuse ourselves
to do for ourselves
to care for ourselves
to study ourselves
to see who we are
to see where we are
to know what we have
to have what we have
to do without
to do more with less
to be more with less
self satisfaction
freedom from pain
alone and together
simply feeling better
not forgetting
making it better
giving back
not taking away
one nice thing
maybe for a stranger
lets make it better
one little thing
the plan
we together
can make it better
even with less
look maybe it is just a test
i'll feel better
you'll feel better
they'll feel better
he'll feel better
she'll feel better
we'll feel better
even the it will feel better
it's not asking a lot
it's not giving a lot
it's just a little bit
everyone doing or giving
just a little bit
to make it better
thank you Jude

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

CNN Republican Security Debate

The debate in Washington DC was a very professional event. The audience was all dressed up and applauded instead of screaming and yelling their approval. Wolf Blitzer was the star, he was not in competition with anyone. He did his job, and was focused on doing his job. Thank you Wolf Blitzer. He also did not scream and yell to be heard. His demeanor is so peaceful that the audience is not distracted by him. We were not present to pay attention to him, he was not the star, yet he was the star. Even though CNN is proportedly Democratic, Mr Blitzer did not steer anything to a Democratic tone.
    Getting to the issues and the candidates. Mr Huntsman ended the debate with the focus on America and the distrust of government and unemployment as the issue most pressing. Mr  Gingrich offered a solution to the issue of illegal immigration, offering "legal" status to immigrants who have been here for years, are contributing to the country, having jobs, paying taxes, with children and grandchildren and ties here. He, Mr Gingrich made it clear that these individuals would not be given citizenship status but will be able to continue to live here. Immigrants without ties here would be deported. Considering the fact that there are more than eleven million illegal immigrants here and have been here for years it seems appropriate to begin to count these people as residents. As he said, some of these people did one thing wrong twenty five years ago, and we, America should not break up families for that reason. Mr Paul addressed the issue of the war on drugs, as a failure, and that prescription drugs are more damaging than pot for people with ms.
Misters Paul, Huntsman and Gingrich had the most substance to their comments, addressing the issues with thoughtfulness instead of cliches or speaches that did not answer the questions asked.
No one asked the question about if there was a Democratic congress how would a Republican President get anything done. The middle east was less of a distraction when talking about Mexico, and the drug cartels, as well as the South American countries which America has been ignoring. Iran and China are the countries which need attention. No one really said anything of substance about how to effectively suppress Iran's ability to go nuclear, except for Mr Perry wanting a no fly zone over Syria who is a ally of Iran. Russia and China will not go along with sanctions against Iran and Syria and all we heard was covert activity to thwart their progress.
A lot and more of the same. Still Obama bashing or bashing Mr Obama, the President, and the job that he is not doing, that he is not leading. That for all who demeaned the President was a mistake. Saying that the President was not doing his job, was the way the candidates avoided answering how they either would lead the nation or offer a solution to the problem the president was not solving. In other words they bashed the president for problems that at this time there is not solution. Ms Bachman was all hair and lips. Mr Paul was the look of increulity, Mr Perry the same old far off stare, Mr Santorum still has a father who was an immigrant, Mr Gingrich still quick, Mr Huntsman still diplomatic and the other candidate Mr Romney still has not voiced any plan for the immigrant issue other than trying to find a way to entice intellectual immigrants to America. Mr Cain has lost his standing and was simply treading water, preaching instead of speaking with the people.
Paul, Huntsman and Gingrich still appear to be the intellectual energy the rest are just hot air.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

The CBS South Carolina Republican Presidential Debate Commander in Chief Debate National Journal

Why is America, the American People being eliminated from the Presidential election process. Why did CBS cut the coverage and opt to continue the debate for a select audience of high speed internet users in the USA.
Why is the news media in America choosing to dumb down the voters. Without information to make an  educated choice for commander in chief, the wrong person will be chosen and we shall have to live with the consequences. All of us, including the news media.
Much was discussed tonight on broadcast tv. Minute bites of the candidates plans for the country, our security and safety. Although the questions were thoughtful they were longer than the time for the answers, giving us much fodder  to ponder and little time to hear what these people have to say.
Mr Perry redeemed himself, with grace, dancing over the blanks of the last debate and bragging about his past ten years of leadership.
Ms Bachman changed her hairdo so we were able to see her face, too bad she did not wear a suit that would have her on par with the men, she chose to look like a woman instead of an executive. Brooks Brothers makes suits for women. Parading her sex is a mistake.
Mr Gingrich was his curt self.
Mr Paul shared his knowledge.
Mr Santorum reminded us that no one in the Bush Administration or the Obama Administration listened to him about national security. Why could he not get his point across.
Mr Huntsman did not get much time to speak but did get to say that China's young people who are connected in cyberspace will create the revolution in China changing the communist state, and that what America needs to lead in the 21st century is economics and education.
The big story is Pakistan, harboring terrorists and having nuclear capabilities and how do we maintain a working relationship with Pakistan while thwarting the faction in Pakistan that leans away from having a working relationship with the USA. And the triangle of Afghanistan, Iraq and Pakistan as the forces to sway because Iran is working towards nuclear capabalities.
There were of course the sound bites bashing Obama and the job his administration is not and has not done to support change in Afghanistan.
Mr Santorum gave the worst answer when he said he would if elected, surround himself with individuals who thought the way he thought and shared his point of view. He should have said that he would surround himself with all the people who would give him the best information needed to make the best choice for the country, looking at all sides to the issues.
The candidates are getting stronger and more informed, they are becoming seasoned and more willing to share their points of view. Too bad more people do not have the opportunity to interview them, that is, more American voters should have the opportunity to view the candidates and their performance before the nation and the world. So that they in fact, will have the tools to make the right choice for our leader. Mr Obama may in fact be the person to lead the nation for the next four years but we have the right to choose, and without the information we have no choice, and the country will be deminished. It is time for education and information for the American voters  to choose the course for the nation. We will have to live through this together, and we, the more we know, the more we can prepare for the future. An educated American is our best American.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Dear Me, 11.11.11

    Today is Veterans Day in the USA. It is the day that the banks are closed and no mail is delivered. Kids are home from school and events are planned to honor all who have served us in war and military service. It is a day when we reflect upon our freedom and the price paid by many to ensure our safety.
    It is a quiet sombre day to mourn the fallen, those who have paid the ultimate price, the most expensive fare for freedom, the battles horrible, the land, strange to our battalions, men and women, soldiers, walking into danger, wishing they were elsewhere, alone, in the place where they have no longer any childhood, no longer any innocent laughter, alone, family the distant last letter in their pocket closest to their heart where they hope they can feel the radiant warmth of the hearth at home surrounded by the family. The piece of paper that gives them hope, courage and fortitude. The slip of paper that was touched by the hand of a loved one touching and close to their heart, keeping them safe, keeping them warm. They are in a place wearing the same boots, day in and day out, they never taken them off, never given a chance to breathe, their clothing, stiff with dirt debris and sweat of the days of battle the nights of no sleep, the times of rain, the same clothing between their backs resting against the mud wall, cold wet and distant from a place of comfort, home. Young healthy people, chosen in the best of health, chosen with the best of choices to withstand the rigors of the unknown the unending seconds that never change the tick of the monotony of the changeless tedium of conflict.

 The young bank clerk called to duty, the fun loving guy with the sense of humor that  brought wit to work with him every day, the young clerk who now resides on the wall in Washington D.C.  still far from home, far Brooklyn New York. And the uncle who survived the prisoner of war camp after the battle of the Bulge, the gentleman seated always next to his brother in law, the soldier who found him at the camp, emaciated, filth encrusted. The brother in law awarded the Silver Star, because he dressed  like a peasant to lead other soldiers and sheep through a mine field in Italy, to battle the Germans for a farm house up the hill. Regular guys who sat at the family table during those days of celebration, laughing and joking, full of life. Or the sailor who told stories of freezing every day in the crows nest on lookout in the North Atlantic near the Artic Circle, looking for submarines of the enemy, hoping to site them before being sited, eyelashes frozen, breath frozen.
    Veterans Day, 11.11.11, at home warm safe with memories of past wars, past veterans, peering into The New Age of Malice with the unseen enemy lurking in the shadows disguised as a neighbor, ready to blow up everything  in the name of the new cause, the new enemy, the new evil. There is no longer a map of the territory in dispute, it is everywhere, everywhere they want it to be, against everyone in their way, everyone who disagrees. And they no longer win the land, the territory, the bounty, the assets, the property, nothing tangible in their hands, no bands play, no salutes, no medals, no place of honor on a wall, no bronze statute to remind us of the battle they fought, the day they won, the day they lost. The unnamed hero fighting the enemy in one battle, only one assault, only one place, never to have another day to give, to sacrifice, to live through, only one shot, only one chance to make a mark during The New Age of Malice, the little boy who will never grow old after the conflict, the little boy whose battle is the one, the only one for him, his only time to be proud, his only time to be strong, his only time to be a hero.
    Is it a better war, not to have survivors, no lingering victims no damaged heroes for society to tend, no dependents to remind us of the price paid, no offspring who dream of wars they have never fought as though they were there, no offspring to fear what is around the corner they have never turned, no persons missing arms or legs or other parts the rest of us have. No turf to claim until the total end of the game when there are few left, few to remember, few to begin again till the next new absolute assault on morality, the code of man, living side by side with man, and woman and child.
   Veterans Day, a time to remember what was and what will be, the cost of war,  the price we all pay. Throw the wreath upon the water and watch it roll on the waves of time, washing away our memories, washing away our pains, washing away our days, cleaning the slate for the chalk of life of another day.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

The CNBC Republican Debate

Manufacturing Jobs
Banks too Big to Fail
Audit the Federal Reserve
Tax Reform
The National Debt
Student Loasn Debt
Social Security
Everything you have been worrying about, they talked about last night.
CNBC did get a boo from the audience when they asked Romney if he would hire someone(Cain) who had a cloud of a sex scandal. Romney refused to take the bait.
CNBC moderators seemed on the assault as opposed to impartial. The candidates were up for the game and threw back every ball, letting CNBC seem immature.
Mr Perry did loose concentration or he had a senior moment or there is something going on with him that needs medical attention. But he seemed to be accustomed to losing words and handled the incident with grace. Still, one wonders who put him up to running, and what did they offer him. I hope it was a lot.
Mr Cain has lost some lustre, not because of the sex cloud but because he was not prepared for some of the questions and used his 999 to cover his tracks. Everyone in America has a opinion about most of the issues and can answer some or all of the questions with a possible solutions.
Ms Bachman is falling back on her accounting background and seems somewhat stuck in the books., There is a big world out there and like Mr Cain she seems to have not thought about a lot of the things that affect the nation.
who is left
Mr Santorum is focused on the middle class and natural gas. He should have broadened his coments to include the rest of the world.
then there is
Mr Romney, who got most of the attention from the commentators. He is apart from the rest of the crowd in that he appears to be very smooth, expensive and segregated. He has money, and looks like he never sweats, or that everything is easy. A businessman, a ceo, a boss and a guy distant from the rest of us. He appears to be someone you could not talk to, someone who does not want to hear someone elses opinion. One of the guys who knows something and is not very ready and willing to share it with the rest of us.
on the other hand
Mr Paul wants desperately for all of us to hear what he has to say because he believes we are misinformed and uneducated. The kind of father trying to teach his child, desperately trying to find the right language because the lesson is vital and must be learned and is better taught by a member of the family than being hit in the face by the real world.
Mr Gingrich has a plan for the brain. He wants America to focus medical research on the brain, because of Alzheimers, old age and all the ailments that affect humanity when triggered by the brain. A very focused goal to reduce medical costs due to the effects of brain damage and disease. Like Mr Paul, Mr Gingrich seems to be paying attention to the needs of the nation. Whomever is elected, both these men have something to bring to the table and should be included in the next administration. They both seem to be paying attention to the job to be done, whether or not they grab the brass ring of president of the USA.
Mr Huntsman, if you had the opportunity to hear him, reminds us that China is closely linked with out health and well being and that a statesman diplomat must be available to protect our interests before it is too late. If you think about China, If you think about all the money we owe China, and if you think about all the products we buy from China, besides China's buildup of military might then Mr Huntsman is the man that must represent the USA with all dealings with China. He did say that what ever threats we threw at China like tariffs  would be answered by China, and that needed diplomacy as opposed to arrogance or threats. Watching Mr Huntsman's poise made one realize that the USA is quite small compared to China. Every other issue facing the nation seemed very insignificant to China and our relations with China.
    It was a very large debate. Chock full of concern with the real issues facing the nation. A very serious time. All the candidates exuded concern for the nation and the future of the nation. Mr Cain wants to be president, Mr Perry does not, neither does Mr Paul nor Ms Bachman, Mr Romney wants the feather in his cap. Both Mr Cain and Mr Romney seem to have their own best interests at heart, that is they seem to want to have the top job, like the kids who always were fighting to grab the seat in musical chairs. While Mr Paul, Mr Gingrich and Mr Huntsman seem to be statesmen.
Misters Huntsman, Gingrich and Paul seem to be the most educated about the needs of the nation and the three of them together should be able to convince the rest of the electorate to do the best for the nation.
Rich people do not know what it is like not to have money. And we have to choose among the rich, who, we think, will act on our behalf and now WE must make the choice of not who we like but who can get the job done. Because we in the USA and the rest of the world are in a lot of trouble and we need someone who can get us out of trouble, and make the very difficult decisions that will affect us all. America is still in the position to lead, and we should choose a leader to lead us out of the difficult dilema. We can not afford to choose the pretty, the witty or the kind, we need the strong leader, and it can not be just the one person who will be president. We need the person who will surround himself with the thinking minds that will recommend the thoughtful choices and not the quick fixes. It will be a long winter, maybe ten years long, and we need the fuel to get us through. Please choose wisely, don't just pick for the sake of picking. Become informed and then you will do your best to choose the best leader. Whatever you do, do not make the choice you will regret. This election is so important it comes down to NO REGRET. Be sure you do not regret your choice, because we will have to live with your choice.

Sunday, November 6, 2011


    TOSCANINNI had it
his music filled every sense and then some
he gave all his energy
and received all from all
his musicians 
his listeners
he filled the air
with life
he never withheld a miniscule
his wand waving
tell all
do not close your ears
do not close your heart
this is the way it should be played
this is the way it should be heard
this is the way it should be
and this is the way it is
PICASSO had it
simplicity in the line
one line
one movement
you feel with your eyes
what you see reaches
the innermost point
the place hidden
the place
the ephemeral
the lasting
the visceral
and it moves
and you are there
and he knows you
he knows what you feel
what you are
and he tells
in no uncertain terms
what we
could not verbalized
in the one motion
one line
a simple flick of the wrist
it is all there
the real
the imagined
the dreamed
the thought
the wish
the truth
the man of numbers
with the sense of humor
afraid not of looking foolish
the numbers king
maping the universe
guides are still travelling
trying reversing
the finite
the infinite
the meaning of all things
we did not speak his language
not most of us
scientists told us
of his brilliance
of his accuracy
of his history
the mapping of the universe
as we do not know it
but as it is
as he says it is
an as his last gift to us
as he lingered to life
he left us notes
to play
at our liesure
to hear what he had to say
when someone
can speak his language
to tell us what he had to say

Saturday, November 5, 2011


Did you do it?
I did it but I don't remember doing it.

Where is it?
Nothing is ever where I put it.

Will you answer me?
I did.
No you did not.
I did, I told you...

I put everything away.
I know you told me already.

We saw this movie.
I don't remember, let's watch some until I remember.

Did you fix it?
I didn't know it was broken.
I told you.
No you didn't.
Yes I did, when we were sitting in the kitchen looking at the mail.
Well,  if you did I don't remember.

What's for dinner?
I don't know.
When will you know?
When I get up and look and see what I can figure out.
 I could go for....
We don't have any.
We'll have...
We had that yesterday, I don't want the same thing again.
How about salad?
No, I don't want salad.
How about tuna?
No, I don't want that.
Then you have to eat what we ate yesterday.
I'm in the mood for....
You should have thought of that when you were doing the shopping.

We need to buy one or two new tires for the mower.

Because the whole that was there got bigger, I plugged it and put in some of the liquid to fix flats and mowed around for awhile but the tire went flat again.

I can't use the machine?
You can, if you fill the tire with air and ride around for a little while and then fill the tire with air again.

Then I guess we should get a new tire.

Shoul we order one or two?
I don't know.

The machine is six years old and those are the same tires that came with the machine
Well, I guess we should get two new tires.

What took you so long to start the machine?
It needed a new sparkplug, the hopper was clogged and the tire was flat. I put in a new spark plug. I couldn't find the stuff to plug the hole, then I  couldn't find the tool used to put the plug in. Went back to the house and checked the tool box and couldn't find it. Tried to plug it with a screw driver. When  that didn't work I drove back to the house and looked again in the work room and found it, then I plugged the tire and put in some of that stuff to fix flats an filled the tire with air. It worked for a while, then I noticed it was almost flat again.

Are you going to work outside some more today?
I don't know.
What is there to do?
Look and see if I can fix the other machine.
What are you going to do, it won't start?
The book says to check the air filter, the spark plug, the oil, and to check the throttle travel, whatever that is. We'll see how I feel after lunch.

What color are my eyes?
That depends on whether or not you are drinking.
What did you have to bring that up for?
For information. When you are not drinking your eyes are blue. When you are drinking they are like a grey.